The desires of the heart, the wonders of the brain.. this right here, this is where the heart speaks.
I’m no good to you
We were best friends. We talked until the sun went up and sometimes past that. We talked about everything and anything. We laughed and told the funniest stories to each other, we were assholes to each other and just bitched, and in the end, we were still always there for each other. I always had an inkling that maybe there is something more. I always had the thoughts and feelings for you buried deep inside, but I’m so lost and damaged I would do no good to you. You deserve someone better than me. So here is what I am going to do. I am going to surpress my feelings, forget the what ifs, and let what happens with you and her to grow. She is predictable and safe, and she would be great for you. Me? I would take you for granted, and I defy all the rules. You mean so much to mean, but I know I’m no good to you. Things are now a little different between us, and I wish the issue was never brought up. But no matter what, you will always have a place in my heart.
The whole year I just wanted to be the girl you talk about with your friends, the one you trust, and knows how to make you laugh, and all your favorite songs. But most of all I just wanted to be your girl.
Remember single doesn’t always mean “lonely”, the same way a relationship doesn’t always mean “happy”
I wish I could have my dream prom
better yet, I wish I could have you
I think I fell in love with the idea of falling in love with you.
and I can’t seem to stop. I know in the end, it’s not going to end perfectly, and all I will end up being is hurt.
I’d rather hurt on the inside, than inflict pain
It really hurts when this happens. When these petty little fights escalade to massive attacks and we are both on offense. I don’t understand why these fights always have to end like this. I don’t understand why there has to 20 a week, it’s like a requirement that we fight before the week is over. You give me shit for being a pacifist because you know what? I’d rather hurt on the inside than inflict pain. That’s just the person I am. So you go be whatever the hell kind of shit you think you are, and I’ll just keep everything to myself cause I care about you enough not to blow up and yell cause at this point, none of that matters.
Girls Like You
It’s girl like you, who fuck up the good ones for the girls who will never get a chance to have a prince charming in their life. You have picked this other guy over 3 times! So for 3 times you didn’t realize what was in front of your eyes, you didn’t see the love he gave you, the happiness he provided, and the pain you caused him. For some reason, he will always take you back. WHY? He thinks he’s in love. In my opinion, you made him your bitch. He’s such a loving caring guy and I can’t believe how much pain you’ve caused him, and how he still wants to be with you. He is never going to appreciate another girl because once your twisted cycle finally has a destructive end, he’s going to become those assholes that won’t let any girl in and ends hurting every girl he comes in contact with. It’s girls like you who doesn’t realizes what she has and screws it up for all the future girls he could be happy with.
